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Driving Myself Crazy!

Drive written by The Cars (my cover of) -YouTube!

I feel it's time to do more songwriting. Just for my own amusement. I still feel more wants to come out and be played. So fulfilling to play your own music even if you can’t get people to listen to it! I adore my own songs. When I play them my spirit smiles. I feel my most authentic and content.

I keep trying to figure out what these two hands can do for monetary gain. I know I should take a clue in what isn’t happening here. I sure put a lot of energy into things that don’t monetarily compensate me. Squandered energy? At times I become highly annoyed that everything that I do in my life, I give away for free. Being a housewife for so many years is a prime example! I have done my best to be a really good housewife, to the best of my ability…above and beyond at times. Lately, I just feel depleted. Music, has helped me to find and express my individuality. I should be happy for the outlet to express myself. I just wish I could be good enough to find more in it. 

So I find myself reevaluating my life. If not music, what can these two hands accomplish?

It’s almost time for Chinese New Year so I need to get these ready go put up in our cherry blossom tree. It always blooms with beautiful white flowers every Chinese New Year. So far to date it doesn’t seem to matter what time in the month of Jan. or Feb. the new year falls, my tree blooms. This year may be the exception because we had a unseasonably warm fall. My tree has not shed all of its leaves and Chinese New Year is only a few weeks away! It will be interesting to see if my tree will be in bloom then. I kind of think that it won’t. First time ever that has happened in the 12 years I’ve lived here!

Chinese New Year and Valentine’s Day decor all meld together every year lol…