Friday, November 30, 2018

The Queen Of Something More

https://youtu.be/3KK8QzuclgU
An affirmation ⬆️ of what I would love to change about my life. I'd love to be able to break out of the cocoon that binds and gags me lol ... I feel oppressed and depressed in the current state in which I find myself. Probably like a lot of you? So maybe this is a very relatable song! Maybe, you also play the woulda, shoulda, coulda game with yourself? You know the one, "what if I zigged instead of zagged"... That one, is especially tough to contemplate! Oh my gosh. Well, this song cuts straight to my feeling about what I didn't do to fulfill myself as a person. I'm good at being everyone else's cheerleader but when it comes to taking care of my own dreams and desires, I fall short!
It's never too late to dream and dream big. I'm not done as I am still breathing... I get up each day hoping I'll run across, create that magic formula that propels me into my self fulfilling fantasy. Sometimes I get discouraged and sometimes, I even lose sight of what that looks like in my head. I am however sure that I am not living up to my fullest potential. I remind myself of this every time I clean toilets and the cat litter box lol...
I am content with myself, just not with where I have gotten to yet.
Maybe, you can relate? I think it really hit me the other day when we were buying a car. Because I am a stay at home homemaker, with no job- I haven't amassed enough credit to be on an auto loan and or therefore the title of our car. I get to own nothing!!! How's that for a reality check?! Yet another reminder of Something More Than Nothing... What the hell did I do to myself? All of this and I've been stone cold sober my whole life! " Calgon,Take Me Away!"


He looks awfully cute in this box doesn't he?

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

Wonderful Wednesday

Practice, "Covers" day. Here are a few that I worked on. I'm just getting over the worst chest cold I've had in 20 years. This one was a real beast of burden. Right through the Thanksgiving Holiday. I was actually sick for 2 weeks. I was annoyed lol. Anyway, I'm back!
This was a great way to spend a Wednesday morning. I am glad for the distraction as I've been saddled with domestic chores, kid stuff and auto searching. I'm glad the search is over! Yay now I can catch up on some music I want to finish!
Wednesday Practice Covers ◀️click on the link.

I have been doing a bit of holiday decorating too.

A work in progress. The weather has been so nice it's hard to believe that Christmas is near! Even my ornamental Pear tree is confused as to what season it is...It's blooming in places!


Craziness!

Tuesday, November 27, 2018

Reinventing My Self Esteem

Self esteem is all in the eye of the beholder. Sometimes you lose it for awhile and you have to be reminded that you do still have some. You have to find it when it's hiding behind the darkness and the things you can't seem to effect and change! This cover is empowerment even if it's only likeable to me. It showcases my ability as an artist playing by ear. Everything that you hear in this piece is my musical cover effort. I layered two tracks of my musical input via my YamahaMOX8 keyboard. Everything you hear here, I played... The vocals are mine as well although I realize they aren't great. It was a great joy to create this cover in its entirety using just my old iPhone to record with. Probably the quality could be a ton better. Still, I'm proud to have tried to cover so many of the intricate parts of this original written by Roger Hodgson formerly of Supertramp. I'm not very tech savvy so it was a real revelation to me when I figured out how and that I could layer a track on top of another track via AudioCopy. I'll remind you that all I am really is a 56 year old housewife from the suburbs of Phoenix. A housewife that longs for a piece of the pie in the music world. Carving a niche for myself in some kind of money making, prosperous way? Lol that hasn't happened but I love to try. Never give up on your dreams even if they don't chase you back... Maybe?

This gave me great joy! It's the holidays and I'm choosing for the moment to appreciate the effort, not the result.
https://soundcloud.com/tyna-j-phipps/fools-overture-is-written-
Link⬇️


Tuesday, November 20, 2018

Quit Chasing Dreams That Don’t Chase You Back



I'm creating the big feast on Thursday. I always try to incorporate some little homemade craft for my table. This year Amelia and I had gathered pinecones on our day trip to northern AZ a few weeks ago. I wanted to use a few for our family dinner. This year my daughter and her family will be joining us.
I still have some grocery shopping that I need to do today. My daughter is bringing a few side dishes as well. Like most of you, things get pretty busy this time of year. The kids have a lot going on. I've been in hot pursuit of a low miles gently used Hyundai Accent Hatchback. At least I figured out what I would like to buy... My 2005 PT Cruiser is fading fast and I would like to replace it. Anyway, looking online for the best deal has taken a lot of my time and energy! The internet is a terrific tool. The gently used fleet cars via Hertz, Avis and Enterprise are possibly the most price efficient way to go. They are clean and have been serviced regularly. They generally have 30-40K miles on them. I looked into Carvana and Vroom and they may be easier and a more fun way to purchase a vehicle but a little more expensive. What a nice no hassle option though! Imagine having a car delivered to your door!
I'm thinking an Ironman Silver or dark gray color would be nice in the Accent. Maybe Black Friday deals will surface on these car options? As I said, a great deal of time and energy spent on looking for a used car.
I went to see Bohemian Rhapsody. I loved this movie! What great collective talent the band Queen was. Freddy Mercury was incredibly musically gifted. He had a hard and tortured lonely in ways life. Reinforcing my notion that nobody gets to have it all! Boy did he ever shine in the spotlight... I love his music and the amazing musical legacy he left the world. Talk about a contribution to the history of music! Loved the movie, loved the man too. I could just hug him! Although Freddy got most of the acknowledgement, the band Queen had so much collective talent and genius. Amazing musicians, all of them! The movie left me with a desire to cover some of music of Queen. Maybe I will try?
Speaking of Covers, I just read a bit about Article 13, all about copyright issues. The pros and cons for and against. I get it from a creator song writers perspective. I also know from my YouTube channel creator perspective that this will be the straw the brings down my channel. I have written a few songs of my own. I have worked on them and have reposted new versions of them and given them my best authentic me... Very rarely does anyone watch/ listen to my originals. My channel gets a fair amount of views but almost always, my Covers are viewed. So, with article 13, mine and many others don't stand a chance. I know for a fact I'm not the only artist/creator to have this issue. It's hard as heck to get people to listen to Original music.
My hopes and my dreams of a YouTube channel that can grow and prosper was already dashed as YouTube keeps taking away features on small fish like me. I lost my ability to try to prosper when I suddenly had to have 1K followers... I have also lost the ability to utilize the geography stat that I so enjoyed viewing. It's a kick to see what songs do well in different countries! YouTube has been taking away vital stat info for growth and understanding of viewership for awhile. I used to be able to see gender pie graph charts etc... Now all I can see is what operating system and what type of device was used to view my videos. Pretty much useless info.
I'm sad that my fun as a creator on YouTube and on SoundCloud may be coming to an end. Awwww! I've had my channels for 5 years now. What this all did for me personally was amazing! Confidence, personal risk taking, and a chance for me to be authentic and an individual! I have loved every min of the time I have spent creating and being a creator! I have enjoyed tending my channel and having a platform to perform. My husband has pointed out more than once that had I been good enough, and talented enough, someone would have found and contacted me long ago... I have known that reality for a long time. I wanted to strive and to try! I wasn't going to let naysayers win! I have been determined and believe it or not, I have worked hard at trying to become better, good enough to become marketable and worthy of getting paid!

It hasn't been in the cards for me but I never give up... I suppose if they nail the door shut on my channel I won't have to feel like a quitter. I will have taken my love and passion for creating music as far as I could. I suppose that at some point, your dreams ought to chase you back...

Thursday, November 8, 2018

The Holidays Are Emerging


Hi there! I'm working on a few songs for my channel. Holiday music is on my heart...

The domestic chores won out as their were many this week. I got up at 4:30 am this morning to make a big batch of my homemade Mac & Cheese for my husbands office potluck. He asked me to make it.


I was glad that this went over well! I primarily bake my Mac but this is a creamy béchamel version. Easier to keep warm with a crock pot.
Election Day is behind us as well as the constant commercials with each candidate bashing the other! I'm glad that's over! I'm saddened that our Senate race is too close to call yet. I really have a terrible dislike for Kyrsten Sinema. I wrote a post about my great disdain for her way of thinking. She called Homemakers leeches on their husbands! She is a clueless politician and has no idea what it takes to run the business of "family".
Homemakers are a different class of individuals. We work hard, don't receive a paycheck but still feel that giving of our time and energy to our families for free with no paycheck or 401K is a benefit. Homemakers provide quality of life plain and simple. We pick up the back end of the business aspect, the front end of caregiving and everything from meal planning, party planning, cleaning , cooking, carting kids to and fro and being the family cheerleader. The means of support. The go to person for everything under the sun, moon and stars... all, for free. It's pretty much a tiring, thankless job but one that seems to enhance the family objective and support system.
Anyone who doesn't see this as a job, hasn't experienced first hand the benefits...
Anyway, I really hope that Arizona doesn't have to endure this Sinema gal and her strange politics in the senate! I'm usually not outspoken about politics but I take umbrage at this candidates offhanded, disparaging comment and view of stay at home caregivers!
She has other quirks and strange misleading ideals... no thanks!!!
Anyway, I've had my say at the polls and here on my blog so I guess I can give up rant?

Here we go. A peaceful serene picture of the park I walk/ run by on my route... whew. Meanwhile the holidays are right around the corner. It's almost time for planning, budgeting and food prep. Before I know it, I'll be up to my ears in "Holiday Splendor", a.k.a. holiday decorating.

Have a great Thursday evening!