A Blog about life and living through my life experience and perspective. I am a writer, singer/songwriter childhood savant musician...Trying to find my niche and stake my place in society...
Being human is cool most of the time. The human condition and vulnerabilities hmmmm sometimes not so much. If you have ever had a sick kid around, you realize that you can get caught up in it quickly. Don't know how or why exactly but these little people can make you so sick! My four year old granddaughter came to visit us day before yesterday and she was getting over the stomach flu. I caught it! I'm dealing with it but miserable. I'm in good company as it swept over my household all except for Howard. He must have the immune system of Superman. He never catches anything. Within hours lastnight, we were dropping like flies! Fast and virulent it came and lickity split I want it to go!
These G-Kid creatures share so many things with me. They make great hosts for things that can and
will knock you on your butt. That is where you can find me today, in bed or sitting in my chair. Any Mom or Grandma knows this is the stuff of nightmares with kids. Plenty of wash and disinfecting to do. Not to mention caregiving on top of being ill yourself. We will make it through the flu on this Veteran's Day 2015.
Howard got into his escape hatch and went to work. I hope he stays well and can make it through the day! We have enough fallen soldiers here today.
All kidding aside, I am thankful to all of the service people who sacrifice much for our freedoms! They should be honored on a grand scale with great appreciation! Have a wonderful Veteran's Day!
Thanksgiving is two weeks away yet but for whatever reason, this song that I posted on SoundCloud is being played a lot! When I originally posted it last year, it took off. More than any song that I have ever uploaded! When I originally posted it, I wasn't even that happy with it. For what it's worth, here is the link. Click on the link if you are interested...
I have yet to figure out what Christmas song I will cover next. I only know that they seem to be worth the effort. My dream is to write one...
I am still dealing with CPS who is dragging their feet on getting things going. My poor daughter has been put on the back burner so many times. The judge had ordered that a reunification team be put in place to start the process of getting Alissa home to her Mom. That was at the beginning of Oct. Here we are in November and the coordinator just called to set up the first visit with Lexie. I had to light a fire under the caseworker. I wrote a letter last week asking the caseworker about the progress he was making with getting the team together to expedite the process. I never heard back from the caseworker, but at least now a team is in place.
Alissa will be going home soon.
We have a foster care review board meeting for the 23rd. I will not be attending but will be available via conference call. I feel like I should let the review board know the hell it's been having to deal with CPS and this caseworker specifically. Knowing me I won't. Besides, this isn't about me, it's about Alissa. So, I will just float along with flow of this slower than molasses process. My daughter has a lot of patience for this. If that were my kid, I would be jumping up and down on somebody's desk!
Have a great Tuesday!
Wherever you go, there, you are! Hope you find yourself in a good place to be!
Bless her heart, this kitty is patient! She is now having to put up with four year old antics... I walked into the room and Alissa had put her sunglasses on Twink. She didn't seem too stressed out about it as you can see.
I appreciate this great ambassador for her species!
She imparts nothing but love to all who have the privilege to know her! One of the great greats in my life! I call her my BFF.
Today I am full of concern for one of my grown daughters. She is going through a really tough breakup with her husband. They got married very young and have been together for 12 years! They have a couple of kids and this will be very hard for them I'm sure! It's a nasty breakup with plenty of emotion being flung around by both sides...A.K.A. (drama). So sad to see as I love and understand them both! I really do! Awwwww!
Meanwhile the kids get caught in the crossfire. I have counseled them both as best I can without having them tune me out. I certainly have no business in giving out relationship advice but I love them. I hurt for and right along with them!
Even when they are grown, you never stop worrying about them and how they will make it in this
world.
On a lighter note, pardon the pun, here ya go...
I'll Be Home For Christmas
By the way, has anyone heard any updates on how Rick Davies of Supertramp is doing? I am so hoping that he is feeling better and doing well with his cancer treatment protocol! I just want to hear that he's ok!
That's the way it is in life. Practice makes perfect.
I'm still far from perfect but I have practiced this a lot. Although I didn't write this song, I have worked hard at trying to make it my own. I arranged it. You won't find a version like this because I wrote it.
It kind of came to me.
As I write this, I am uploading this song to YouTube. I am working on getting a separate PA system to run my vocals through. I have been running both my vocals and my keyboard through a Roland amplifier. So I am hoping for a big improvement in the sound quality of my vocals!
I think that my husband is starting to understand that I'm not going to give up on my dream of trying
to do this professionally. It helps that others are starting to take an interest in my music. That is a
tremendous boost!
Don't know if I'll ever get anywhere but I'm working on it!
Meanwhile the earth keeps rotating on it's axis. TIME, is marching on!
Christmas shopping was on the agenda yesterday. All seven G-kids are taken care of.
Zoe is now trying to wear contacts. She got a trial pair yesterday. I'm working with her on learning how to put them in and take them out. I am a long time contact lense wearer myself so I understand the learning curve.
I'm sure she can do it! She isn't sure that she can though. I'm hoping that she
gains more confident today.
Here is the upload!
I Put A Spell On You written by Screamin Jay Hawkins. cover arrangement, Tyna J. Metzner
This is always my favorite way to wake up in the morning. I get up at 5:00 am. so that I can spend an hour to myself planning, thinking and writing my blog! Liquid inspiration! I like to ponder my next musical project. I haven't been able to have quiet time for recording a video. I was asked to try a couple of new things to create a better quality YouTube video but I have my four year old granddaughter under foot and I simply haven't time to spend on myself. Today, I may attempt a video.
I was told that my Granddaughter may be able to go home around Thanksgiving. I think we are all trying to transition our thinking for that big change. I have had her nearly a year, and I think she has really become dependent on the schedule I have tried to create for her. I know that she and her Mom will have to create their life together! I really hope that they can fall into their own happy life! I won't know what to do with myself with the quiet. I imagine that I can do a lot with my time! I am really looking forward to having time to think! I have missed my quiet self! I enjoy having time to create and write! It takes a great deal of focus and quiet time to be able to do that! Songwriting is a process I'm finding. Everyone has a different way of writing. So far, the music comes to me first, and then I write my lyrics.
We all have our hobbies, and this one makes me the happiest "Me" that I can be. I think I understand that I probably won't get to be grand in this lifetime. My dreams are still mine and I won't ever give up until I am unable. Age, is just a number! I still want my 2nd act! If I can't do it on a large scale, I will create my own. My accomplishment will not be measured by other peoples expectations of success. If I only create for myself, I will have had the personal success and experience of having created! If the universe doesn't recognize and or appreciate my musical contribution, that's ok. I have created! It is the process of creation, that is the reward! (This I tell myself when I feel I can't get anywhere with it all.) Seriously though, the feeling that I had as I finished my first original, I will never forget! It was an extremely spiritual experience. This propelled me into a feeling of empowerment like no other! I felt as if I had finally recognized my truest, authentic self!
I tried like heck to get it out there for the world to hear. I thought it would be well received. When it fell on deaf ears, I was stumped. Lol. When I play my own works, I feel at peace, as if my soul has spoken. If my songs are thought to be good, or just awful, doesn't really matter! They are unique to me and my life experience. I have appeased my human spirit. This is the true reward in life. If the universe and the masses, choose to recognize and reward you is insignificant really! The reward is the experience along the way! That being said, I will share yet again my first songwriting endeavor. True to my life experience and straight from my heart! I almost see this as fitting in a country genre?
Something More Than Nothing!
It's the journey, not where you end up that matters... Greatness, begins and ends in the mind and spirit of the beholder!
"Whatever I touch, there I will prosper!" "Whatever touches me, I will make better!"
How do you measure your own success? What makes your heart sing? Whatever it is, do it today!
Being tech challanged is a pain in the butt! I tried several times to get the link posted to the song this sweet lady mixed for me. I'm making one last effort to get it to you lol. I hope that this works! I posted it on Google + and it seemed to work so, here goes!
Sometimes the kindness of strangers is humbling! This sweet lady approached me via email. She had seen my videos from a site that her daughter Katy, from the band (Cherokee Blonde) and I had been posting videos to. Kathleen, is the Sound Engineer/ Videographer for the band Cherokee Blonde. She wanted to give me a taste of how much better I could sound with professional mixing. Boy was she right! I was amazed by the quality of sound difference in comparison to my stardard flat iPad sound capability!
She had me record a vocal track and then the piano track independent of each other. That was interesting in itself lol. She then mixed the two tracks with her magic software and ear!
I couldn't believe the amount of time she took to try to help me! I am so thankful to her for this!
She also offered some ideas for better quality videos which I haven't gotten to yet! What a sweet person she must be to be willing to put the time into helping little ole technology challanged me! I do so appreciate the help and support!
Having heard what my music could sound like, I long more than ever to be able to get into a studio to record! What a dream come true this would be for me! It would be like heaven to hear a completed track that I did with full sound engineering and mastering! Like heaven I tell ya! I'm sure all artists must feel as I do!
I wonder what it was like for Rick Davies and Roger Hodgson to hear their completed works for the first time, fully finished. I bet they cried tears, I would!
Meanwhile, the holidays are inching up on us! I am in the process of budgeting, planning and online shopping. Like many of you, I suppose. I hope to find the time to arrange another Christmas song or two. I would still love to do a video with all of my G-kids singing. I would love to have a YouTube video with us all together! Just for fun!
Cardiologist says more SVT episodes are likely for Zoe. It is not a life threatning condition. It is more uncomfortable than anything. If she has more episodes, cardiologist can do an ablation proceedure to fix the electrical short for good! We would opt for that over Beta blocker meds! She's young and meds are scary and have side effects!
Now, we just wait to see if she has anymore episodes...
She's been cleared for all regular activities and back to her life. She was able to ditch the heart monitor as well!
My burglar, Zoe. She and her BFF Paige dressed up the same! So cute!
So creative I thought! We actually trick or treated as a big group with Paige's family, her Mom Mel is my dear friend.
Oh and of course, Miss Elsa (a.k.a. Alissa) went trick or treating with us as well.
Our community really gets into Halloween and I so appreciate how fun spirited this collective group are! It's a joy to see so many people gathering in the streets to have some light hearted fun! Some of the houses were decorated so nicely for the occassion, you can't but appreciate the spirit of this holiday.
I spent a great deal of time yesterday putting away all of our Halloween decor. I pulled out my Thanksgiving treasures and yet again decoated the house.
