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Making St. Patrick’s Day Memories

This is a family tradition that I started when I was a young Mom. some 35 years ago...

My Mom used to make Dream Pudding when I was young. You can use any flavor of pudding. It is very rich and thick like a mousse. Today in honor of St. Patrick's Day I'm using pistachio pudding. Dream Whip is also in the jello isle in grocery stores. I use the Dream Pie pudding recipe to make this favorite.

I serve my Corned Beef & Cabbage, with nice warm crusty bread. I also make lime and pear jello. The flavors are wonderful together!

The weather was so incredible I decided to plant some flowers. This is exactly how I wanted to spend my day!

I'm just beginning my corned beef brisket... low and slow! Add red potatoes, carrots, onion and of course cabbage!

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Happy St. Patrick's Day. May you find your, "pot of gold" at your feet. May good fortune and good friends find you.

Music Video Scrapbooking It’s This Artists Thing

If only... I could simply upload my video to my blog post! If it were that simple than it would be right here, on my post! But try as I might, I'm not able to post that much media here.

I sure had a good time making this video today. All with bits of pieces of my life loves. Scenery and great pet friends surround me. My kids and some of my G-kids as well. Near and dear, I love to include bits of pieces of my daily life into my videos. My original music and SoundCloud tracks become videos. I think about the message, and add photos and videos clips that I think capture the essence of the music. Kind of a unique way of Scrapbooking I suppose? A form of art or nonsense depending on your opinion of it.

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With all of the YouTube creators out there, it's amazing what you can find to watch. I'm in the sea with all the other fish. Trying to find my rainbow scales. Lol or am I just Video scrapbooking with music?

Enjoying The Color In The Smallest Things

He is an adorable little stinker and, he's a sweet cat boy.

Color and springtime are making a comeback in my world. The crisis appears to be over and I'm beginning to really appreciates really small things. Beautiful things, colorful treasures .

This jar of candy was beautiful to me. The prettiest jar of hard candy that I have ever seen! I found it yesterday while walking through a Mediterranean market. It is an import from Germany. It it lovely!

Everything looks better in color!

We are big cat lovers around here. All of us are!

Although

 she is beautiful, she is selective about when you can hug her.

This never happens as they barely tolerate each other ...

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We are going to get some rain the next few day. We have been getting California's leftover storm precipitation. This looked dramatic the other day! I 

thought we would get slammed with rain but, it blew by us without a drop falling!

These ladies are such sweet friends of mine. They were with me in spirit in my recent hours of need. They even offered to come and sit with me in the hospital during my husbands heart surgery...

It is a big relief that he's doing ok after the post op complications. After spending an additional 8 days in the hospital, he's finally healing well!

Everything looks and tastes better after a crisis. It takes time to get back to appreciating the small things and appreciating the color.

Colour My World (Cover) ◀️ Click on my YouTube cover link.

It is spring break this week for the kids. My husband still has a few more weeks leave from work. Im looking forward to being able to play my keyboard again!

Post Op Complications And Unforeseen Setbacks

 

Hobbies and dreams are fun but they sure get put on the back burner when things get tough!

Life has a way of making you simplify and prioritize. I’ve been caregiver during a very difficult recovery process from Triple Bypass Surgery. I could tell that my husband wasn’t feeling at all well during his recent recovery process from Heart Bypass Surgery. I thought it might be normal for him to be breathless and so uncomfortable two weeks into his recovery? I did however decide to take him into the local hospital ER. He was having trouble breathing especially while trying to lie down in bed.

After a few days of testing we were told that he had pleural and pericardial effusions. Scary and very serious! He ended up having  a procedure to drain the fluid around his heart and his left lung. A drain was inserted in his pericardial (heart) sac. He spent an additional 8 days in the hospital!  13 total days within three weeks were spent in hospitals.

 I was spread thin juggling kids, chores and my choice to spend a good deal of time at the hospital. He was released from hospital a few days ago. He is better but we still have a lot of Dr. appointments to go to. He is still unable to drive so I am his driver.  I have no idea how we would have been able to manage had I been working... we are just about halfway through the recovery. He had this miserable set back as well. All of this translates to stress.

Having been through all of this and the uncertainty of life, I feel the experience has changed me aswell. I’m fighting sadness and depression. It has all been an exhausting ordeal. I really feel the need to reinvent myself into something marketable! I need a career...
Somehow, I need to feel that I can make it financially on my own with the kids! How this translates to my skill set remains to be seen.

Finding My Peace Refuge From Stress

I  find it extremely difficult to tell what of my posts actually post with my pictures lol. I thought I could copy and paste my blog posts from WordPress as I can write them quicker there. I suppose I can write my blog posts here and then copy and paste them to WordPress? Anyway, if by chance you have been following my blog posts and haven’t been able to see my pictures, the identical posts with pictures are on my WordPress blog site- Look me up- tynajoymetzner @ WordPress. I apologize for this social media blunder!  Tech savvy I want to be, a gal can dream!
I’m going to post some random pics from some of my blog posts just to catch you up lol... I haven’t got much musically going on as he is home recovering from open heart surgery and will be home for the next 3 or 4 weeks. I have been busy caring for him and taking care of this small little world here. My world just got smaller and I’m finding this to be a challenge! I difficult time for me as I’m sure for him. He is doing very well recovering. He is feeling better in ways than before the surgery. He finds that he can walk without chest pressure and pain. We believe that he has had severe coronary artery blockages for several years! So I’m sure he is relieved to already notice a very improved health benefit. He is not an easy man even on his best day. Right now it’s almost impossible to get through these long days and nights. He’s not sleeping well and has no problem in letting me know lol. So, I’m not sleeping either.

My homemade chicken soup...

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This was a just for fun few stolen moments a few weeks ago...

The music is my cover of Fool’s Overture and Don’t Leave Me Now, both written by Roger Hodgson of Supertramp. 

Now, my stolen moments consist of long walks while he’s napping...

I’m grateful for the walking respites. A time to breath and reflect! 

Speaking of Roger Hodgson, I can see the very venue in which I saw him perform on my walk! 

Wild Horse Pass, Ovations Theater.

Thank God for these moments of fun reflection! Life for me is so stressful right now! 

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Heart Breaking And Quite An Undertaking

This will all look better in the rear view mirror. This current phase of life has me asking many questions and pondering so many things. I'm drained and have become 24/7 caregiver to a man who just had a triple bypass surgery. They call it Cabg surgery, short for Coronary Artery Bypass Graft. My last post was all about the fear of the unknown. We had yet to learn in a quick 20 minute angiogram, that he needed a triple bypass. I knew it wasn't good news when I was instructed to meet the cardiologist in a consult room just 20 min after they took him for the test.

I was initially told he needed a quadruple bypass. He's only 56! I could barely wrap my head around the severity of his condition. Big long blockages I was told. 99% occluded! He could have had a heart attack at any time!

As expected, he totally lost it over finding out that he was staring down open heart surgery. His worst fear about all of this had come true. The surgery wasn't scheduled till Friday, two very long days after the definitive diagnosis. He was admitted immediately and we sat for two long days in the AZ Heart Hospital contemplating his biggest fear. I was trying 
to be positive and helping to stave off the panic and fear of the impending surgery.

The bypass surgery was done by Dr. Hessel, a very skilled surgeon. The surgery went well with no complications and was completed around the 3 hour projected mark. He spent the next 3 days there in ICU and came home on day 5. He has had a really rough time with breathlessness and being tired. Because he is on blood thinners, the bruises he has are beyond awful! He has become hyper aware and fearful of everything he feels. I suppose you would all things considered.

Down right angry and mean as can be as well. Impatient, unhappy with everyone and everything. Fortunately he says the pain is mostly gone. It's mostly the reality of his situation he is fearful about. He watched his Mom struggle with and chase arterial blockages all over her body. Many surgeries and multiple stents before losing both of her legs to 
PVD.

I'm watching the depression set in now. His "new lease on life", short lived by the fear of what's to come I think. The real enemy is Arteriolosclerosis. Not his heart. Plaque that can probably be found in other arteries in his body.

A humbling experience to witness as well... If I'm honest, I'm not thrilled to have to go down this path. I still want to live, I'm still young and I'm not resolute to endure the rage the anger and blame on a daily basis. This will surely be a test of my own endurance and personal strength. I will do good to come out of this 6-8 week recovery period with any self esteem left... This may be very difficult indeed to endure. The story of Cinderella comes to mind.

The day before his angiogram, I took a long 4 mile walk. The sky was incredibly beautiful. It had been raining and was just beginning to clear. I had never walked among such beautiful clouds! It was serene and it felt like a spiritual experience. When I rounded the street corner to my house, I saw a beautiful rainbow entirely over my house. It gave me great peace and joy. The most inspiring feelings came to mind. I was very grateful for those moments of solace! It was magical!

Could It Be Magic ◀️ My YouTube Cover Video Link.

Have a terrific Sunday.