Monday, August 3, 2015

No 401K I Stay Home All Day!

 The Queen, of "Something More Than Nothing".

Clarice!
This cat is so soft you wouldn't believe! What a treasure. I found her via a cat rescue group. I've had Clarice since she was a small kitten. She has a meezer personality for sure. Extremely playful and a bit snippy. She has a really sweet side too but only when SHE wants to be affectionate. She is a treasured family member!
Today is the first day of school in our district. Zoe is starting 8th grade. Her last year of middle school. So far she has managed to escape the drama that middle school can be. The ridicule and scrutiny of her peers seems to have eluded her. I have heard nothing of anything like that. I hope she can avoid the drama. I'm grateful that she has surrounded herself with nice friends!

I'm hoping to find some semi quiet time today to make some new goals. I have several chore type projects that I need to accomplish. Mostly I'm waiting for cooler weather! It will be 110+ this week outside so I try to avoid being outside. Yesterday however I decided to trim a row of large oleanders that were growing out of control. They are along the driveway, right by where I park. I have been annoyed by backing into them while trying to put my G-daughter in a car seat. I hacked them way back! I used a pair of trimmers so it was  a good workout in the process. This was an extreme amount of outside work in the heat. I drank a lot of icewater before, during and after. That project took an hour and a half and by 9:30 am it was so hot! I did however have the satisfaction of accomplishment. My husband noticed my gumption! Showed him what a tough chick I am lol.  Saved a ton of money doing it myself!
The problem with being a full time housewife is you are never finished. You just keep adding tasks to your to do list while repeating the day to day chores.
No 401K, I stay home all day.  Without social security I'll have no retirement benefits! Where's my pension? Ugh, the things we do to ourselves! 



Sunday, August 2, 2015

Be Careful Of What You Want You Might Get It!

 I have a much different take on the music industry now. I just watched a documentary done by the band 30 Seconds To Mars. This aired on Palladia. I'm so sad! I had no idea this is what record labels are like. I had no idea that to sign with a record label you are essentially selling your soul to a devil. I had no idea that artists are in serious financial debt to the labels that represent them. Now with digital music artists and labels take a huge finacial hit. Then you have people doing covers ( like me )...
I guess I nust assumed that to be signed with a major label means you have arrived?! Not so I see. Awwww, what an eye opener! I'm so disappointed. I was aspiring to try to do something! I will still try but I won't be as disappointed when I don't make it anywhere lol! My Mom used to always tell me " be careful of what you want, you might get it " !

I guess I understand the need artists have to get paid for everything they touch. Record labels and now even fans are stealing music for free! This new generation knows nothing about paying for music. They get it all for free all over the internet! Legally and illeagally. I knew some of this but I really understand it better now. What a shame! I thought artists had it made if they were signed to a big label! Not nessicarily so! Sounds as if the bigger the artist, the harder they fall! The more in debt they can become!

What a sad and sorry shame! I guess you have to really just love contributing to the history of music. The adoring fans make it worth it! For now I guess that I should consider myself lucky... I have nobody (other than my husband who doesn't like the time I take playing) to tell me what I can do. I can make a fool out of myself all over the internet, (I probably have). Nobody tells me no don't do it. I'm free to post what I want/ where and when I want (and I do lol). My own originals I am speaking about! Like this one...
This one...



And lastly this one!


I post these wherever I can!  Too bad we musicians can't just use the honor system with fans... You listen to it- pay me lol...you like it, you invest in it lol! Invest in me fans lol... I get how difficult it is to get paid! You would have to have a tremendous following to ever even get looked at by a label. I guess I love the process of creating/ writing and executing music. I suppose I have that in common with famous artists. I hope they still enjoy at least that part of it. Sounds like the monetary reward has never been as great as I thought. I thought that a good attorney would ensure a good record deal...NOT! 




Saturday, August 1, 2015

Ambiguous Ingenuity Come To Me!

I think it's so interesting to be able to see other peoples perspective. My daughter put together clips of our summer vacation. She obviously liked the water. She was in charge of taking pics and video with the GoPro camera. I called Zoe and her friend Paige the "mermaid photogs". If I had the camera I would have taken more pics of the landscape and food lol. Zoe did a great job of including the G-kids in on the fun. Britt, her hubby and four kids joined us for a night and few days. It was great to hang out with them! Click on this link to view this video, if you like vacation videos lol. ➡️My daughter's perspective of our vacation.

Now that we are back, we have the arduous task of getting back into school mode. School starts here on Monday. Back to school shopping is on the agenda this weekend. Zoe is starting her last year of junior high. I hope this will be enjoyable and memorable for her! She is a stellar student and rather shy I think. She takes her education very seriously and we appreciate that! Her hope is to complete the dual enrollment program in high school earning her AA degree and graduating high school at the same time. Two graduation cermonies lol!

Her Dad has a good handle on steering her education. He works as an enrollment counselor for University Of  Phoenix. He has helped my big kids structure their classes and degrees. He has guided them through getting set up in college classes to picking degrees. He knows the ins and outs of degree programs and which degrees pay the most. This really helps my big kids as they are in the process of earning their degrees! This is something  that I'm so grateful to my husband for! This has been such a blessing.

It's an incredible age in which a lot of a persons education can be obtained online! I wish I had that opportunity when I was a single Mom in the 90's! Now I'm a homemaker in my 50's looking for work with no degree. I've been a stay at home Mom for so long with gaps in my job history... I wonder if McDonalds would even hire me? I think about cleaning houses...at least I would be able to create my own schedule. I think about trying to find a place to play my keyboard. That I would love to do but I don't know that I would want to put myself out there in bars by myself...

I really hate that in my 50's after having given my family all of my time and energy I suddenly find myself trying to magic up a career for myself! It's so humbling and embarrasing! Daunting, depressing and discouraging come to mind. Ugh, the things we do to ourselves! God, I wish I had a purpose and a freakin career!











Friday, July 31, 2015

Lost In My Mind Have You The Time

 Click here on the link ➡️Lost In The Game (piano version) written by Tyna J. Metzner
This is my SoundCloud contribution for today. It's amazing how fast time scoots when I'm at the keys. If I'm not careful this is all I will get done today. I have Zoe to take shopping for back to school supplies. A four year old to bathe, laundry to do and fold. A toliet or two to scrub. Dinner to plan and cook. Grocery shopping for that dinner along with meals for the weekend. Business calls to make. Run by the bank, gas up the car... Pick up perscriptions for my hubby. Oh and per his request "Get A Job that pays..." I suppose that about covers it for today. So why am I still in my jammies lol...?
Have a great day whatever you do!

Thursday, July 30, 2015

I Can't Seem To Escape AZ Child Protection Service Failings!

I'm Unnerved by Arizona Dept. Of Child Services. This comes as no surprise as it has been touted all over the news as a horrific mess. The agency under Gov. Brewer's direction, was dismantled and revamped. Things appeared to be improving within the system for awhile. The following is my first hand experience from my "Gram" perspective in my dealings with this agency.
 Case number # 1. 
My two year old Granddaughter fell into a fire pit while in the care of her severly drug impaired Dad. The court had previously mandated only supervised visits for Dad as his drug impairment issues were known to the court. His parents were deemed the supervisors and the facilitators of these visits at their home. The severe burn injury happened in the backyard of their home. Dad had left 4 year old Nate and 2 year old Liz unattended by the fire while he went to the garage to get high. Liz tripped and fell into the fire leaving her with severe injuries! Liz had 3rd degree burns as she lingered on those coals, her left knee recieved the worst of it. This injury had her in the Maricopa Burn Center for over two weeks and two pig skin graft surgeries! A full year of recovery and therapy.

While in the hospital, my daughter and I spoke to the authorities and CPS was called in to speak with us. My daughter and I were assured that CPS would go investigate and take hair follicle drug test of Dad and the Grandparents to prove causation. As the months and criminal case against Dad progressed it became obvious that something had gone wrong in the case. My daughter was so busy raising the kids and working full time that she asked me to oversee the criminal case. She actually gave me proxy in overseeing it. I was so steamed and drained chasing my tail, trying to get some answers between the Mesa Police Dept. and CPS. I became so frustrated that I reached out to a local ABC 15 News. A journalist there, Lauren Gilger wanted to do this story! We spent a day online back
and forth trying to get to the bottom of where this case went wrong. We both determined it was the

failure of CPS. We didn't do the story as it was my daughter's story to tell and she was afraid to get the press involved.

When we went to court and all was said and done, it became obvious that CPS had dropped the ball! Come to find out they never drug tested Dad. They told us they asked him to submit to a drug test but he refused?! The prosecutor and the cop called to testify looked and my daughter and I with such downfallen eyes. We all knew the criminal case had been blown. Dad recieved a mere slap and pled out! I was heart sick for a long time. I kept thinking that I wanted to find a law or justification for CPS not demanding that he be drug tested. I wanted to lobby the piece of the law that precluded this drug addict from being drug tested. Assuming that their was one, before congress! I wanted them to call it Lizzy's law lol. I was so disheartened by the system!

Case #2  of which I am presently living...

Another daughter and her husband unfortunately have had several encounters with CPS amid various complaints. When CPS finally decided that my Granddaughter needed out of home placement, of course I stepped in. She has been living with me for the past 7 months. Because my Granddaughter is a ward of the state, I deal with CPS workers often. In the short amount of time I have had my Granddaughter, she has had 4 different case workers and an interim worker! I can't tell you the number of times I have been told that a worker has not been briefed on the case and they have no clue what's happening. I have needed assistance for various things and sometimes I don't even get a call back for two weeks at a time, if at all.

The most notable fumbling in this case came to our attention at a foster care review board meeting.
We had reported a criminal child abuse incident as it had been told to us by this child. The police
made reports. I took our Granddaughter in for a foresic interview. The allegation substancated by
my Granddaughter on camera. CPS was notified of the findings by the Maricopa County prosecutors
office " Crimes Against Children"  dept. The case worker we had didn't feel it nessicary to report it  to the court?! The Foster  Care Review board had no inkling a criminal  case was pending or the nature of the case. Nor was My Granddaughter's GAL, (attorney) for the case notified. This was such a surprise to find that the case worker didn't feel it nessicary to inform the court officals overseeing the case about an open criminal case?! That particular  case worker along with many others have recently walked out! The dept. admits  that a major walk out has just occurred. Leaving those of us in the system, without help and contact from any knowlegable source! It's a frightening feeling when you feel that the people that are supposed to be helping families haven't a clue or care about the children! It has become scary as if their is nobody left overseeing anything!

My Granddaughter's case has been reassigned to a dept of CPS that is an hour away from the original
department. My daughter is doing well now according to the Parent Aide assigned to the case. My
daughter is ready to take custody back according to this aide. My daughters husband has ditched  the state.  The  majority of the issues upon the removal of my Granddaughter left with him... My daughter will need help and services beyond the return of my Granddaughter. God help me, I hope someone follows through to ensure a safe environment and quality of life for my Granddaughter! After having to deal with this branch of the government in two separate circumstances, I have totally lost all faith  in the system! Kids are falling through the cracks right and left through this failed dept. This branch of our local goverment is fatally flawed resulting in a tremendous threat to the health and safety of at risk kids! OMG!

I want to see a change! Maybe I need to be proactive in telling my story to  the right, effectual people, and
who might they be? Is anyone overseeing this department or is everyone running amuck?!












Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Ambitious Promptings With A Desire For Solitude

I'm home from vacation. I did all of the laundry and put everything away. It was so nice to get kitty hugs! They were so glad to see us! Even my snippy Clarice was extremely affectionate to me. I love my cats! I finally had some time last night to turn on my keyboard. I haven't really played for 2+ weeks as I was so busy. I have to say, that was so much fun! So exhilarating!
I asked my viewers on YouTube to help me find my next cover. One of my subscribers asked me to cover Bohemian Rhapsody. I have always thought that song to be completely way too ambitious for me. It's genuis beyond my ability to do. Well it's coming! Bits and pieces are beginning to emerge. An understanding of the progression changes. All the while I'm thinking about the collective talent/ genuis of Queen. Freddie Mercury was an incredible entertainer to watch also. Freakin amazing! This song will be very challenging as a solo artist but I will find a way to arrange it to make it work for me.
I'm going to start writing again. See what I can come up with. I played all three of my originals last night and I find that I love them! Each one significant to my thinking. An extension of me. I'm really happy with my originals!

Something More Than Nothing




Lost In The Game



Who Controls The Stars

I chuckle to myself about some of the comments I get from my YouTube viewers. Several times I have been asked to share lead sheets and my sheet music. I don't read music, I play by ear so this is interesting to me. I guess I'll take it as a compliment. 
I had a mishap with my mic stand. I grabbed it and the arm sheared off. Maybe I will look on Craigslist for a used better quality boom stand. I'm sad! 
School starts here on Monday. Zoe is starting her last year of junior high! My Granddaughter may be going back home to Mom soon. I'm looking forward to some quiet time.



Monday, July 27, 2015

Fun In The Tucson Sun Starr Pass Resort

The view is serene and breath taking.

So very pretty!


The lazy river is so relaxing and a welcome amenity in the AZ heat! We live at the lazy river. This was our third vacation at Starr Pass!

Fun in the sun!

I even took a nap!


Zoe and Paige were so cute dressing up for dinner each night. 
We enjoyed dining at Signature Grill and at Primo restaurant.

Plenty of sunscreen! Britt was busy applying sunscreen to her brood.


Paige and Zoe

Nathan!


Tommy
Lizzy 

Nate, Tom and Liz


Nachos poolside! The best onion rings I've ever had too. Wish I had taken a pic of them!


Splash pad for kids!
I love this hydration station. Believe me, you need to be reminded to drink and drink...

I highly recommend this resort experience!