A Blog about life and living through my life experience and perspective. I am a writer, singer/songwriter childhood savant musician...Trying to find my niche and stake my place in society...
Mount Zion National Park Horseshoe Bend Pandemic Vacation
Some of the most beautiful scenery! I am so glad that I was able to get out and enjoy some much needed time to appreciate some beautiful scenery. Magical, mystical and even spiritual food for the soul. I highly recommend Zion National Park.
Panoramic View!
The beauty that this place possesses is incredible! I loved Utah! If you haven’t been to Utah consider Zion National Park. It is a scenic treasure!
When I got home from our trip I put a slideshow together for my Facebook Music Page and my YouTube Channel. The Cover Music I arranged. I used my Symphonic “Praying For Time” SoundCloud Cover track in my video. More Video Scrapbooking lol. Here are some video and track links…
The moon. I took this picture of the moon a few months ago. I played with the iPhone filter options. This pic was taken on Mother’s Day. An extremely rare and odd gift from Mother Nature as it never has rained on Mother’s Day in Phoenix. Not once in the 16 years that I have lived here!
The dark clouds are fitting to my current state. I’m feeling cloudy and dark but the rainbow symbolizes hope and joy for the future.
Grad night party with family isn’t what she had in mind I’m sure…
My daughter graduated from high school on Thursday. Certainly not the graduation any of us could fathom! Who would have ever had thought that a graduate would be handed their diploma from someone behind a medical mask?! Just so hard to imagine but that is how it happened.
I created a couple of videos for my YouTube channel regarding her graduation.
I used my original song, “Lost In The Game”, as it just kind of fit what we were all feeling!
My daughter had worked very hard throughout her 13 years of primary education. Her high school experience was all of good grades and stacking the deck. She graduated with a 4.0 GPA , had two National Honor Society recognitions. One being Rho Kappa. She did dual enrollment, shaving a whole year off of her college requirements! She even received a special AIMS tassel. To not be able to walk for graduation was a bitter pill… she was rather down the whole day! I did however try my best to put together a small family gathering party of which you will see in the video link. Hope that you watch it!
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Low Key Celebrations During Pandemic Make Me Sad And Mad
I’ve been celebrating my daughter’s 18 B-Day! I put together the first family, (and a few friends), gathering for months! Our state has reopened. It was so nice to see my big kids and the G-Kids! It was nice to have an evening just for celebration! Daughter Zoe turned 18!
The realization is that the hard work and the raising of this child is lessening! She is officially graduating on Thursday. She starts college in the fall and will be rooming in a dorm room. She’s been a terrific, and wonderful kid. I’ll miss her but I feel good about her choices and her study habits. I’m going to hold good thoughts and high hopes for her bright future. Happy 18th B-Day Zoe!
I’m hosting a small Grad party for Zoe as well. We have a designated time slot to drive through the school parking lot to pick up her diploma and yearbook. Certainly not the way we thought she would be graduating. I think the school is also posting an online virtual graduation Thursday evening. Anyway, my grown daughters and maybe a few of Zoe’s friends will come by for cake… This Covid-19 pandemic is a really party squasher! This was supposed to be a grand moment for Graduates! I have missed out on watching this child graduate high school. I also missed out on watching her sister receive her bachelors degree in communications from ASU!!
Here she is pictured with her family… she worked very hard to get this degrees while raising her family and working full time. If ever somebody had a gift for making lemonade out of lemons, it’s this gal ❤️.Trying to provide enthusiasm and love where I can. But it’s no substitute for what a grad should get to have! No throwing your hat up into the air. Screams of joy and excitement will be missed…Trying to provide spirit and an environment to celebrate! Missing out on all the hoopla and the earned acknowledgment and kudos…She received honors in two different honor societies. Had a 4.0 GPA all four years… plus a special tassel for AIMS. None of which will be seen.
I’m one proud Mom of both of my Grad girls!
I’m feeling a lot of things as many of you are during this Covid-19 pandemic. A bit lost and changed. Lack luster but still hoping for a return of what feels normal. A bit of depression is beginning to creep in. Loneliness comes to mind!
Who else has had it with sheltering in place? I’m so sad to see that we still have sooooo many new cases of this virus everywhere! I see no leveling off, in fact, more and more cases then we initially had! I’m disheartened by looking at the numbers state by state. I understand the economic need to reopen the country and each state. It doesn’t seem possible health wise to do so. It’s getting really hot here in Phoenix. Today may yet reach 108 degrees by 5:00 pm.
Taco Feast with Flan for dessert. I made taco omelettes for breakfast with some leftover meat, onion, cilantro, cheese, homemade guacamole, salsa and sour cream. It was a hit!
Flan although not completely from scratch, I did have to cook it lol. Hey a shortcut here and there… Nobody needs to know😊. I spent an afternoon moving my canned goods from the garage shelving to this indoor space. It’s getting too hot to store even canned food in the garage..
I haven’t played my keyboard for about 10 days. My studio space has been taken over by a home office. Even if I could make space, I need to keep the house quiet for work and kids online remote learning. So I keep extremely busy doing household chores. Inside and outside. Last week I walked about 20 miles in 7 days… I have worked on organizing projects to plenty of homemade meals!
Housing birds nests again. Every spring a bird family raises babies in this lantern!I cut my own bangs… my hair is so long now, the longest I’ve ever had it. I wear it up most of the time because it’s too much to style it most days! I gave Amelia a shoulder length bob hair cut as well. I even cut my dogs hair lol…
Restless as the day is long. I’m chomping at the bit to get back to what I love to do! Meanwhile, please Wait For Me -YouTube Cover Video
Interesting how time goes by so slowly when you are in a crisis. A holding pattern or a situation beyond your own control. If I gave me my thoughts, they would probably be a lot like yours… Playing the blame game doesn’t change our situation. It just shouldn’t have happened and people shouldn’t have to die! I catch a glimpse of the news daily but I get too down if I listen to too much of it.
Saturday I took a few hours to play my keyboard. I posted a few of my #LiveFromHome songs. It’s funny how all of the big name artists are coming to you online “Live” from their homes. I’ve been doing that very thing for the past 6 years now. Watching them, leads me to believe that the playing field has been leveled!
I ran across this baby picture of myself. It’s clear that my fascination and love for playing was always a part of me! I played songs long before my hand could span an octave…
Since We Are Living From Our Homes I Think House Is Relatable In This Time
I made homemade face masks with bandannas I had laying around. They have been repurposed as I had been using them for informal patriotic dinner napkins. I never thought I’d be making face masks! I am wearing them when I have to go out to grab groceries and supplies. I’m really the only one leaving the house. It makes me a bit uncomfortable to be in a store. I used to really enjoy shopping too! Darn! Lol I wonder if shopping in a store will ever feel like a safe thing to do ever again? I feel like I’m risking it all for…——full in the blank. I have started doing the grocery shopping online at our local Fry’s market. I bought my Easter Dinner grocery list online. I have never used the service before because as I said, I previously enjoyed grocery shopping. I pick up my order tomorrow from the curbside pick up available for my time slot. Hopefully, they will be able to fulfill the order as they have been out of many items. It feels like a war zone in the stores. People aren’t friendly anymore and nobody smiles. If they do, you wouldn’t see a smile through the masks we all wear. We have all become good at social distancing. The eyes of strangers suggest that we are fearful of contact with everyone. Even on walks, people are diligently sidestepping each other in purposeful distancing. It makes you feel as lonely as hell! Anyway, things have changed so much in the past month, I wonder how we will get the socio integration back of living without fear of strangers. It breaks my heart to see and feel the general vibe of being out in public… One thing I’ve noticed on my walks. We aren’t wearing masks because we have room to breathe. If you smile at a dog, they almost always smile back! This goes for cats as well❤️. Today my feature song of choice is: HOUSE- written by Elton John. Here is the link, ➡️House ⬅️ I created this YouTube Cover Video a few days before last Thanksgiving… Who knew then that this, was coming?
During this terrifying time in history it’s hard not to catch the news. It’s everywhere you look! Constant reminder of what a dire situation the whole world is in. I can’t listen to the news without tears silently running down my face. I have moments that are so filled with despair!
I’m not alone although I feel extremely lonely! It’s terrible to hear your president tell you that we will all experience a horror with massive loss of lives in the next 2-3 weeks… Many will die and millions will get sick. Omg, “Calgon, take me away”! (Showing my age, with this reference…) More than a bubble bath with candles can fix! STRESS and fear come to mind.. Not to mention our very lives are at stake in the big picture. Facing our own mortality possibly? It’s enough to send you under the covers hiding out till the whole thing is over!
Honestly, if that’s the case then I’m going to eat that—- (full in the blank), lol! You start thinking of all the things you still want to do and accomplish!
This brings you to assessing your life. Maybe not a bad place to be in all of this. Making plans, goals, dreams and hope for the way you want your life to be. Maybe you even begin manifesting these desires through meditation and positivity… not a destructive choice of use of this time either. Maybe you even decided that you are going to be bold and take initiative in the relationships you wish to have. Still as far as I can tell, not destructive behavior.
I vacillate between moments of fear and proactive goal setting. I’m probably just like most of you. Trying to stay hopeful, healthy and looking forward and ahead to better days!
If we can make one new friend during this time and remind those we love that we do… Maybe it will comfort and ease the loneliness that comes with this dreaded beast! Our friends and acquaintances need to know they are sure important to us❤️.
My friend Lisa left these beautiful stems at my front door with a note yesterday. This morning when I looked at them, they had opened into a beautiful happy bouquet. Reminding me that with time, the world could heal and we can get back to living. Meanwhile, setting goals and making plans for the future are a great use of time. Maybe indulge yourself and eat that — too?
Here is a song that we can all relate to now! (My Cover), Silent Lucidity ⬅️Click on the link for my recent YouTube Cover Video.
Walking helps ease the stress as well. Practicing social-distancing … No social distancing required…kitty hugs are great❤️!
Wishing you well and all good things! Thanks for reading my post. Hang in there, surely this will get better for the world and soon.
