Christmas Is Half Way Here, Hire Me

Never too early to plan for Christmas projects. I'm looking to do some Christmas songs for media projects. For hire! I can see myself playing in the background for some restaurant scene in a Christmas movie lol... I wish that I could create my own niche.  I wish that it was easy as asking the Universe for permission to do this. I've tried everything to get myself out there. Every damned thing I can think of! Commercials, whatever!

Wishful thinking...

My God lol. 

Fifty Three Comes To Me

I was thrilled that my oldest Britt brought a few of her kids over to have cake with me! Alissa is still with me. It looks as if she will be living with me for a long time. It's an adjustment for all of us. I'm sure it is for her as well. She's a tough little gal who has had to be very assertive. She has a lot of coping skills. Many more than any four year old should have to have! We are trying to do the best for her that we can. The situation is sad and hard to process in my mind. I'm working with it but whoa!

Birthdays are an incredible time for reflection and to make new goals. I love spending a few hours quietly to myself just thinking. I like to think about what it is that I want to accomplish next. I have yet to find my money making niche. I had really hoped that it would be in music somewhere!  I still feel as if I have something that I need to prove to myself. I think that I couldn't be trying to break into a harder industry. Everyone  nowadays is a singer songwriter. I haven't given up but I'm becoming more resolved that I may not be able to get anywhere with music in this lifetime. My music just may not be anyones cup of tea but mine! Between me and my maker. 

Something More Than Nothing

This affirmation that I wrote last year still applies to my statement of self.

*Whatever I touch, there I will prosper.

Whatever touches me, I will make better.

Birthday's Are For Reflection

Here is morning cup of Silent Lucidity...

Click on this link➡️ My Cover Of Silent Lucidity

Today is my 53rd birthday. As an adult, I look upon b-days as a time of reflection. I enjoy quiet time reflecting on my life and life lessons. I enjoy spending an hour or so alone just thinking.

 I'm still learning new things and finding out more about myself everyday I'm here.

  

The Third One's The Charm?

Here's my latest finished original!
Who Controls The Stars

Here is the SoundCloud Version

Who Controls The Stars Written by Tyna J. Metzner

Original Songs Are In The Eye Of The Beholder

Who Controls The Stars written by Tyna J. Metzner

Time is here- I want to pull you near. To look into those eyes and feel your touch 
tonight my love, tonight.

Time to put away my fears and let go of all the tears. I'm so glad to be with you and everything you do, delights me so- my love.

Who controls the stars? I want this night to last forever,  I don't want to move, I just want to stare at you, and the stars - forever.  Don't wake me from this dream think I'll wish upon, stars - a little longer...

Instrumental break

If only in my mind- it's just a matter of time. Till my dreams will all come true-and I 'll find you, for real, my love, one night. I'll just close my eyes real tight, and dream of you- tonight...

Can't wait to pull this all together. Sometime this upcoming week. I'm taking a week off. My husband has taken the week off. I don't play my music when he is around as he seriously gets angry when I do. He totally gets annoyed with anything to do with my music. Tells me all the time what a waste of time it is and how it's not doing anything for the family. He wants me to give up my pursuit of this since I'm not making any money at it. He just gets angry...in ways this breaks my heart as he is not at

all supportive. Couldn't be more unsupportive. I can't tell if he really thinks that I'm awful or if he just

wants me to think that I suck...

It doesn't keep me from wanting to try...It compels me to want to show myself that I can do this! This is my third original song now with lyrics...For now this is all between me and my maker. It may very well be that I'm not very good or very talented but it means something to me to try. I enjoy the writing process. It brings with it a huge since of accomplishment when it all comes together!

Click here on the link ➡️Who Controls The Stars written by Tyna J. Metzner

I hope to have this pulled together and finished and on SoundCloud and YouTube sometime next 

week.

Something More Than Nothing

Lost In The Game 

Balloons For My Grad

I put a Graduation party together for my beautiful daughter Brittany. She graduated Tues. eve from Rio Salado college. She will be attending ASU in the fall. The month of May is so crazy here for our family budget. Along with our monthly bills we have Mother's Day, Daughter Zoe's B-Day, Memorial Day weekend and grandson Tommy's B-day. So events are celebrated reasonably on a budget...

I think everyone enjoyed this family get together. I sure did and I can't think of a better occassion to celebrate! 

I made a few small decorations from items that I found at DollarTree lol. Hey the dollar store can really help stretch your budget! Get creative, embellish and make it unique...

A sangria glass with ribbon that I curled,  held this plastic Grad cap cake decoration that I had saved from a previous celebration. 

I like to make the kids table fun too. My G-kids appreciate a fun table too.

My Grad seemed happy to see a few decorations. She said " Wow you decorated, it's a real party!" I could tell she appreciated the atmosphere.

We had little time to eat before having to head out into traffic to make it across town to downtown Phoenix. Knowing this I made it simple. I bought and baked a party sized frozen lasagne. Frozen garlic texas toast. I put together a salad and made a pretty punch with frozen fruit. Easy and with paper plates, easy clean up! We were able to eat and dash!

Not fancy but practical and fun! 

 Then we were off to Comerica Theater downtown...

What a nice venue for Graduation. Rio Salado is an online college. They do a great job with online degree programs! Can't say enough good things about this college! 

Nice ceremony!

Keeping 6 kids entertained for 2 1/2 hours of sitting lol...was a challenge... They were pretty good though! They enjoyed watching Mom achieve! Not all six are hers lol, just 4!

Britt with her precious family. The kids were so proud of Mom! 

I had to get in there to for a hug and pic. I can't tell you the admiration I feel for this precious daughter of mine. I'm beyond proud of her accomplishments, she is an amazing Superstar! 

Then it was back to my house for cake! By this time, the kids were dragging. It was about 9pm.!

Marble cake with chocolate buttercream filling and white buttercream frosting.

I bought the cake from Safeway. Our local Safeway makes delicious cakes. This one is no exception. I sent what we didn't eat home with Britt. She really enjoyed it. 

I so enjoyed celebrating this. It means  so much that my big kids are realizing the importance of having that degree. Britt wasn't even going to walk in this graduation. We encourage her to do so to feel the accomplishment yes. Also, to allow her kids to see that  all those late night hours of studying and working pay off! 

Britt is an amazing woman. She works full time, has four beautiful kids. She still makes time to volunteer in the kids classroom and attend class field trips. She took on full course loads and still managed to walk gaining her A. S degree in ParaLegal

"With Distinction" 

A 3.5 G.P.A!

Stage Fright Or Fun Night Which Will It Be

I put a lot of energy forth when I do anything. I think I'm pretty intense. I'm all in when I'm in. I have been working hard to make something more than nothing of my little homemakers life. I put a ton of energy into trying to developing my YouTube channel and SoundCloud acct. I have worked it like a job and put hours and heart toward trying to become solid enough to be marketable. I guess it's silly to someone looking in. My age, and whatever else you want to say about me... I am however being as genuine to my true self that I can be. This is who I am. This is who I was when I was a kid too.

 Click of this link ➡️ Pieces Of Songs I Could Just Play AS A Kid

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An original, Lost In The Game...

So, my point is that I am trying to get somewhere with this. I was feeling good-ish about where I was heading. I know that all of this in the past year and a half has been great for me as a person. I beginning to think maybe that other people have enjoyed it too? I have received some very nice comments on my channel. I'm to the point now where I am thinking that I might try to venture out a little locally.  I hear that a place in Tempe, AZ has an open mic night. I think you are alotted 15 min. I think that is perfect. A test of my courage and my marketability locally. A place to test myself out.

I do so wish in ways that I had a band. I'm not sure that I want to be the whole enchilada. That, is a 

lot of pressure! My savant is strange too. I know the songs that I know... I can't just play anything so 

requests are a problem. I'm not sure how that will go over. I can sit here and second guess myself and talk myself out of it or I can try. 

Tender Years... 

Saturday In The Park

Downstream 

Wish me luck as I try to work up the nerve to test this whole music thing out. ..