Sunday, December 28, 2014

Out With The Old And In With The New

New beginnings, new thoughts and goals. Out with the old and in with the new. What have you got going on in your head for 2015? I am just now sitting down to think about this. I have no idea... I spent all of 2014 focused on my music. I worked hard at it. Really gave it a good shot! Exausted myself with it. So maybe my focus ought to be somewhere else this year? I will drive myself crazy and be very unhappy if I continue on the same path... What a disappointment that was to realize.

I still have the same affirmation in mind though. "Whatever I touch/ create, there I will prosper monetarily. Whatever touches me, I will make better." I still firmly believe that something more than being a housewife is in me to do. I want to leave my mark upon this earth somewhere! Not to mention feeling a sense of accomplishment all the way to the bank. I still want to get paid!

I'm glad that I have been available for my family. I have been able to be of help to my grown kids, my husband and my almost 13 year old daughter, the youngest. I have picked up the slack for everyone and kept everbody going and moving forward. I watched grankids so that my daughter could do her internship at a law firm. We accomplished that. She has finished her AA degree with her certification in ParaLegal and has interned at the most prestigious personal injury specialists office in the valley.

Now, what am I going to do? Where is my second act? Where is my accomplishment? How and where do I make my mark? Talk about lost, I'm feeling it! I have been a domestic engineer for so long that I am clueless. How do I turn my life experience into something marketable? I have a varied skillset but nothing that I have tried to use for monetary gain. I would love to own and run my own
dessert shoppe. Right by a theater where people could come after the movie lol. Coffee, tea and desserts...I could see myself doing and enjoying that.

I could always see myself owning a bed and breakfast... Lots of work I'm sure. I have lots of energy, good health and an active mind. Surely I can create a niche for myself in society? The problems associated with making a career out of being a domestic engineer are many. The most obvious are financial. No retirement and no 401K! Nothing! The hit to your self esteem is even worse than that! The isolation is almost worse than either of those things previously mentioned! The daunting what do I do with and for myself now realizations at 52 years old...

I have a lot to figure out and think through. Maybe 2015 will be full of wonderful positive life
changing opportunities ! Maybe I will just ponder on this over my morning coffee...





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