Something More Than Nothing: Madness Sadness Not A Place To Dwell

Tuesday, June 12, 2018

Madness Sadness Not A Place To Dwell

I haven’t had much to say. Too much sadness and madness going on. With two celebrity deaths back to back… too much!

Trying to survive kitten antics. Edward my new kitty, played with my flowers and knocked over this vase. It broke into 3 pieces! I quickly glued it back together and maybe you can’t tell that it was broken?

Although I didn’t know these people personally, I’m wrecked by their passing! I have really been perplexed and sad! The impulsive nature of these tragic acts has left me searching for an explanation or some kind of understanding so I can make it make sense. I even wanted to believe in a conspiracy theory rather than except that these people would just end it all. Such a violent self harm way to be done too. Ugh, with seemingly no regard for who might find their body. No regard for the impact on loved ones or the children they leave behind. To make a decision to end your life is amazingly incomprehensible. Especially as a parent! The thought process and justification required I never want to understand or experience. That kind of hopeless must be a hell upon hells. Awful! I shouldn’t pass judgement on something I can’t understand so, I won’t. What a shock though!

Speaking of “Madness”, I’m going to work on getting a cover of this “Muse”, original together. I love the song and think maybe it will be a good fit for me to cover. I bet you wouldn’t expect me to cover this song but, I will attempt it. Look for it by the end of the week if you are interested.

Meanwhile, I’m still trying to stay active here in Phoenix while I can. Temps are rising and I have to get out there really early to be able to power walk/ jog. The temp will hit 107 degrees today. At 7:30 am it was over 80 and the sun was blazing so I just got 2 miles in before coming home.

I gave Coco a bath and a trim.

Entertaining this one during the summer requires lots of icecream, the pool and the public library! Love all of these things myself!

My cat kids are starting to become friendly toward each other which makes me happy to see!

My teen has been purging her room of her childhood treasures. Many of which 7 year old Amelia is acquiring. Letting go of the past and moving toward new things and new goals I guess. This has been slightly sad as well watching her part with her past so easily!

Summing up my feeling of this strange period of time, we do the best we can I suppose. Wherever our thoughts and divine plans take us, we live our lives in accordance with what truly and deeply is within us.