Try Try Again

Try as I might, I haven't got a clue how to promote myself. Over the weekend, I put together a couple of short promo videos and a SoundCloud ad for my channels. Here, they are:
In my SoundCloud Promo, I used one of my original tracks in the background. I'll be damned if the one comment that I received was a person saying, "great ad but you could be more successful if you used my music in your ad." Lol, now that takes the cake!!! All of this promo I have done did get people looking at my YouTube channel. Lots of views but no new subscribers… All of this is becoming more clear and evident. The harder I try, the worse I feel about where I stand which clearly is, outside… I suppose I'll have to let go of the dream as surely nothing but frustration will come from trying so hard wanting so much with little gain. I will not however ever give up on the "Magic" and wonder I feel in actual playing. Sometimes the room just feels magical with the music. A spiritual experience for sure! That, is what I'm really hooked on. That special time when nobody is home. It's just me with my keyboard and I can sit for hours and give it all I've got… that, is the hook. The spiritual connection and the sense of self accomplishment…it's like a feel good drug! So, I'll still create, execute and post my musical endeavors. I wish I was better able to connect with others and gain a following along my journey. It would be my ultimate dream to be able to impart my well received music in music history. That surely is the goal and desire of any musician! When you have accomplished this, you have truly fulfilled your creative existence. I can only imagine what that would feel like! What would that be?! To be able to repeat that multiple time must be nirvana!
Meanwhile, life goes on. Elementary school started here on Thursday. Amelia started first grade. Zoe starts her sophomore year tomorrow. I watched a few of my G-kids everyday for about 3 weeks while my daughter started a new job…I baked cookies, fulfilled my Gram duties, school supply shopping, kept the household running, made plenty of nice meals. You get the point, I'm busy like the rest of you…Still, deep down, wishing and hoping for a personal victory to call my own. Wishing and hoping that the Rock God's would smile upon me!


The kids put a doll crown on this sweet and patient creature… she put up with a lot of extra attention this past month bless her doggy diva heart! Coco Rose is a treasure!

Clarice wore her favorite toy on her head as well… More crazy kid antics… 
I can't resist, I too am guilty from time to time of showering too much attention on the adorable creatures that reside here. Love em!
Have a great Sunday, fun day, hope