Domestic Abuse From A Survivor Perspectivei
I happen to be most proud of my SoundCloud channel. It is truly an honest representation of my music catalog! Music from my youth as well as my originals. A collection of spirit filled musical treasures that have all touched me in some way.
I wrote this song from a wannabe survivor perspective –
Something More Than Nothing-
This, is my most recent and raw recording.
https://on.soundcloud.com/zZSTcsHhkxsuP7Dh8
I don’t think many understand how hard it is to leave for good. The psychological impacts are devastating to a persons spirit. It leaves them tied to the abuser. Prolonged exposure creates – Stockholm Syndrome a.k.a, trauma bond.
When you lose yourself to the constant bombardment of character assignation it can become daunting.
When you have to live by someone else’s rule by threat, you comply for the hope of peace.
Trying to placate a narcissist is exhausting.
*When you find you have no financial resources then you are really trapped. It’s like a cancer that just keeps growing in your spirit. You start looking for all the good you can find. You try to be your best self. You try to shut out all the negativity and soul crushing words, rages against you.
*When you feel you can’t do anything to change your circumstance you begin searching for diversions. Self introspection for comfort and joy. A very lonely place to be.
It’s an awful place that teaches you immense self love, grace, and coping skills… Inner strength and an innate desire to overcome adversity. A lot of inner motivational monologues and manifesting meditation as well.
Praying, pleading with God, and underlying hope as well as despair happen in times of abuse cycles. The whole gambit of emotions.
It’s a terrible, way to exist. Trying to overcome someone whose mission is to overpower and criticize anything good. Unless you walk in a wannabe survivors shoes- you probably would never understand how someone could get there and stay stuck.
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